Monday, October 31, 2005
Recently I've been so tired and frustrated... but at the same time excited because schools nearly come to an end... it's scary too, because then I have to start facing the real world... I cannot hide behind educational institutions anymore... I have to start planning for my future...The pressure is just a bit much sometimes that me n my friends would get together and just talk about life... about what we wanna do with our lives... what our dreams and goals are...
Enak juga ternyata kumpul2 n just talk about nothing in particular... joke around... be stupid... relieves the tension... trus pulang n back to living our own lives again... yg gak sekolah juga stress lho ternyata... stress krn mereka merasa belon achieve apa2... banyak utang...n banyak worries... different kinds of worries n stress... but stress all the same...
Emang susah ya utk dingertiin... kalo gak ngalamin hal yg sama... apalagi buat yg udah kerja dibidangnya n udah achieve banyak... biasanya anggap org2 laen yg lebih muda kurang pengalaman n just plain silly... karena gak bisa liat point of view nya org laen
Misalnya ngobrolin ttg kalo liburan maunya kemana... trus semua setuju n mau ikutan... tp kan belon tentu akan dijalanin... it's hypothetical... it's just for fun... apalagi gw... yg dr dulu pengennya ke Jepang tp belon kesampean... semua yg kenal gw rasanya tau bgt dah kalo dulu tuh gw obssessed ttg Jpg... sekarang dah gak gitu sih... tp kan tetep aja ada that longing dalam diri gw utk kesana... lagian kan emang gw kan demen travel n ke tempat2 baru... hehehehe... adventure...
Tp gw juga tau lah kalo hidup tuh gak selalu senang2... malah banyak susahnya aje... susah2 dulu, senang2 nanti... tp sampe kapan mau susah2 n stress2 mulu? sampe pensiun? tak usah ya... hidup utk di enjoy... Kerja mati2an utk apa... kalo sekarang sih ada tujuan... utk move out n mandiri... n itu prioritas gw... semua yg kenal gw rasanya tau dah soal itu... n walaupun gw suka bawel2 pengen go on vacation somewhere n blablabla, tetep aja pada tau kalo prioritas gw ya tetep...
Rasanya kecewa aja kalo org yg gw harapkan utk tau a lot more about myself trus ternyata gak ngerti... *sigh* gak bisa jelasin jg gue...
Kayaknya mendingan gw selesaiin essay gw deh ye... ntar malem gw Trick or Treating sama Fifi n my li'l sista n Fifi's fren n her li'l sista... n then maybe ngobrol2 bentar ma temen2 kerja...
I really need all the support I can get... especially in the next 2 weeks... I have to do my citizenship test in 2 weeks... n then all my major essays and projects are due... n then finals exams comin up in 4 weeks... I just wanna explode! God help me please...
si Monyet @ 10/31/2005 02:04:00 PM
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